I believe I will be here a very long time, and I told my mom, my mother, after those experiences, I told my mother, I will be in this world for 200 years. So I learned that feeling for myself when I was very young, and so I don’t fear that time in my life. And in Egypt, the Egyptian traditions, on the temple walls, they actually talk about the ceremony of letting go, so conscious death, letting go. Now, as an adult, I study ancient traditions, indigenous traditions and native wisdom, and what I learned is that, in many traditions, when people reach the age, old age, and it’s time for them to die, they don’t suffer. And when we release that tension, that’s what it feels like. When we’re awake, when we’re asleep, we hold that tension, but we don’t even know it, until we have the opportunity to release it. To be in this world, there is a tension that we hold that keeps us in this world all the time. I was five and I have a younger brother who is four years younger, so he was only one at the time, and the family dynamics were difficult for me, and I think it was a way for me to escape, I thought.īut what I discovered was it was a way for me to be more in this world, because I learned I could feel, I could have a feeling and the world looked different, I could have a feeling and it would be a calm, a peaceful feeling of letting go, just to let go.
I think it’s different for different people, and different people, I believe that we have the experience that we need in that moment to help us, give us the tools that we will need from that point forward.Īt an early time in my life, it was a very difficult life. The other experience in the water, it taught me what it feels like to let go, to absolutely let go, and to know that that is available to me, when I leave this world, not to be afraid. So those two experiences, one taught me that there is another reality and what feeling I can make that shows me that reality. I don’t have to cling to this world when the time comes for me to leave. And it taught me that when it is time for me to go to another world, it taught me what that will feel like, that it is a peaceful, a calm feeling of letting go. It felt very good.Īnd it taught me what it feels like to let go, because when I was in the water, I completely let go. The pain was when I came back to this world, but when I was in between, and I don’t know how much time there was, there was no pain at all. It was my choice.Īnd I made a choice to be in this world, and then suddenly people were pulling me out of the water and they were pumping on my chest and that was when the pain began. I opened my mouth, I let out the air, and this peace and this calm came over me, and I could see the beings that were with me and they were telling me that I had to make a choice, that either I come back to this world or I go to another world, and it was my choice. And I remember that it felt very peaceful.
She had gone with friends and I was left alone, and I walked into the water in the shallow end, and I began just to walk and the water was deeper and deeper and deeper, and I went to the very bottom of the deep water. Okay, later in that month, I was in a swimming pool. So it was an experience for me: it told me that there is another way to feel, and when I feel this way, the world looks different, another way of seeing. And one of them was behind me, even though there was a wall, there was a being where there should be a wall, and one of them is at my feet.Īnd when the doctor arrived at my room, the burns were already beginning to heal. It was the opportunity to, there were beings in my room that were healing my body.
And for me, the experience was a very positive experience. So the shock literally shocked me into an awareness of another reality that I had not seen before. And while I was waiting, broad daylight, I began to see things in my room that I did not see before the electrical experience. My mother called the doctor, and they said, wait, wait here. And it was in the middle of the day, like this, when it happened.Īnd I was placed in my bedroom while the doctor was coming to the house. One of them was with electricity, and I remember very consciously taking a wire, with scissors I scraped the insulation, so this bare copper wire, and I walked to an electrical outlet and I plugged both in the outlet and I was severely burned. I had two near-death experiences, both of them in the same year of my life, when I was five years old. I about this 20 years ago in one of my books, and I have not talked about this very much.